I haven’t written in a very long time, largely due to the fact that I’ve been in the midst of a very stressful process of selling my house and buying another. In the midst of this drawn out upheaval I have felt very much off center. In the midst of the mess of boxes and dust all around me my spirit had difficulty finding any sense of equilibrium. Now that things are pretty much in place in the new house, I feel my spirit coming home.
Isn’t life like that sometimes? The ultimate goal of spirit, faith, a path, is to be at center even in the midst of the mess. I wish I could say that I was there, but I am not. Ask any of those who were around me in this process and they will tell you the disjointed, different person I was. Yet, again, isn’t that so often the case with us? That being said, life gets messy sometimes and our hearts seek home – a place of equilibrium – good “fung shui.”
No matter how disjointed I felt in the midst of this process though, I knew that at the end of the road home awaited. I suppose that’s a good thing to remember in the midst of the messes that can befall us in life. In the midst of it, no matter how disjointed we feel – know that in the end, home awaits.
Even as my spirit settles into this new physical space that I will call home, I am aware that on this side of life we live in a mess, disjointed, our hearts seeking equilibrium. “Our hearts are restless until they rest in thee” said St. Augustine. Our hearts so fear the end of this life. Yet, I wonder if, when being born into the next life we will discover the ultimate place of equilibrium and our hearts will finally feel like we’ve come home? That’s our hope. And the good news is this, we can begin to taste eternal equilibrium now.